God pwns

so I had to do some inventory for various behaviorist psychology labs..

why are we not merely the sum of our experiences acting on some psychochemical pehenomenon?

well it seems that good people can arise out of crummy situations, children of abusive alcoholic parents growing up to be caring medical doctors..

ok but why are we more than the cumulation of our experiences and our decisions as a physiochemical phemonemon?we choose to do good, even in crummy situations and viola it feels good to do so

a mechanism can only do what it is designed to do with what it is given. a zero is a different type of thing than a one or a 5. to randomly decide to do good is impossible if theres nothing but negative experience and the person is nothing more than mechanism.

well what if goodness of badness is merely genetic? and goodness is a recessive trait while badness is dominent. two heterozygous parents both bad but the child is lucky and gets the good gene. thus the behavior does not arise from nowhere but arises from some evolutionary storehold within the dna of the population.

what if the consciousness of neuomenal persnhood is unattainable because this quirck, this joke of materiality called awareness only goes so far, and when pressed we see that we are nothing more than mere matter, we really do not know ourselves we merely exist in a hightened perceptual awareness that generally gives the illusion of self knowledge but when pursued the truth is manifested.
i shouldn’t be allowed to converse with myself.

waning diversions.

the use of “evolutionary advantage” and “social construction” almost immediately trigger a nausea of naivete in my mind when coming from unfamiliar sources…

it is in a responsibility that is justified by no prior commitment, in the responsibility for another - in an ethical situation - that the me-ontological and metalogical structure takes form, undoing the logos in which the apology by which consciousness always regains its self control, and commands, is inserted. this passion is absolute in that it takes hold without any a priori. the consciousness is affected, then, before forming an image of what is coming to it, affected in spite of itself. in these traits we recognize a persecution; being called into question prior to questioning, responsibility over and beyond the logos of response. it is as though persecution by another were at the bottom of solidarity with another. how can such a passion take place and have its time in consciousness?

-Levinas

so much of what we are is knowable only at great pains and stretches of the intellect that it might glimpse a reflection of what is beyond in the mirror it holds facing its own reflection…

so much discussion over the known reality of unknowable things. from plato to freud, all find some legitimate niche in the conversation…

if you want something done you gotta do it yourself.. ..on the other hand there’s little you can do alone

where there’s a will there’s a way… …most of the time

I will not claim to know myself and to experience myself, to acquire certainty, nor to assess the destiny of Man, without placing all of Man that I carry in myself into the crucible. It is a living laboratory, this organism of flesh, appetites, desires, and thoughts whose obscure labor I feel perpetually. - M. Blondel

It is here withe the whole condition that we must articulate experiences such as the aesthetic. With the self transcendent and the self immanent conjoined as one.

only when life is shallow can you run aground. only when life is deep can you drown.